During the daytime I usually sleep, and work at nights. I get up at 4-5 am, then I hang out with my friends and folks. Do my own stuff. At 9 pm, I go to work. I think about the daily routine, solve problems that arise during the day. I guess, I live a happy life, many people can envy me.
I have my own family, mother, whom I love very much. She fully understands me and supports. I never hide her from my close ones and they know each other, talk on the phone, if needed. Mom always knows where I am and with whom. I don’t really see how mother’s past can influence on my relationships with friends and etc. At least I’ve never gone through the situation like that.
I have one close friend, whom I totally trust, however we never share the private stories of our families. We never touch these topics, because we don’t need it. Other people, let’s say, with whom I have to communicate from time to time – they only pass by and nothing else. I won’t ever let them interfere in my life.
You try to sound very strong and independent< Eddie, but I think you are very lonely and you need a tru friend badly. I'd like to help you somehow.You try to sound very strong and independent
Hello, Edik. I'd like to support you because I happened to pass through similar experience. My grandparents brought me up. My grandfather was an alconoli and died of cancer. Five years later my granny died too. It was also cancer, but of different type. Before that moment, my whole world was they two, my closest and dearest people and I was eager to sacrifise everything just to help them somehow. I didn't let anyone into my life too. Just like you... I was sure no one ever will understand us because they didn't experience it...Then... It was terrible to find myself totally alone in this world... I was compelled to disclose myself to this world, to discover that the world exists beyond my family (which by that time didn't exist any more), beyond pain and misery, discover other people.... Discover that some of them can be trusted and deserve to be allowed to become a part of you life It's a hard experience, yes, but ... Sometimes it's necessary and it does help. Please, don't desert other people! I'd like you to realize you are not alone.
You are right man, your life is your life! And good that you care about your mother! Respect!!!
Eddie, it's great that you love your mom and support her, but I'm afraid you're making a mistake when you don't allow other people be close to you too. open yourself for this world. There are also friends, not only foes here.
You´re a good boy, Eddie.
Well written, dude!
Good luck to you, Ed!